“During the chaos I was somehow able to put together some clean time and ended up meeting a girl. She was also in recovery from a heroin addiction. We both were not ready for a relationship and somewhere along the way we thought it would be a good idea to get high together just for the weekend. By the end of the weekend, we were a full-blown “junkie couple” I’ve never blamed her for my relapse, but it was clear we were toxic for each other and, ultimately, the relationship failed.”

“An acceptance of my Borderline Personality Disorder led me into a therapeutic program that was based on DBT [Dialectical Behavioral Therapy] techniques. I was eventually kicked out of the program because I wouldn’t stop smoking weed, but the tools and skills I gained were, and continue to be, a huge part of my life today. I started going to the methadone clinic, which is ironic because of how against it I was. I believed if I was going to get off heroin, I was going to do it on my own… I ended up staying on methadone for five years. I understand the critics of these methods (methadone & Suboxone) because of how they can also be abused, but in my opinion, there’s a small group of people who use it right and it can be a means to an end. Of course, on the other side, you see the “lifers” and that can be really sad. I know when I was on it I was only running at 50% capacity. It really wasn’t a great quality of life for me.”